Lyrics:
Rain’s been coming down all night
I can hear it through the window
Haven’t really slept much lately
Just laying here staring at the dark
I’ve been tired in ways I can’t explain
Like no amount of sleep really fixes it
Every day feels a little heavier
Like something’s always sitting on my chest
I still go through the motions
Drive to work, drive back home
Half the time I don’t even notice
How quiet the house has gotten
And honestly
I thought this feeling would’ve passed by now
Still awake
And the whole world starts turning gray
I can feel everything slowing down
A little more every day
And no matter where I go
I still carry all this weight
Like every bad memory I ever had
Never really went away
Some nights I leave the TV running
Just so the silence doesn’t get too loud
I keep replaying old conversations
Thinking about how things turned out
Everybody else keeps moving
Like they figured something out
Meanwhile I’m still trying to get through
Nights like this without breaking down
And honestly
I’m more exhausted than I let people see
Still awake
And the whole world starts turning gray
I can feel everything slowing down
A little more every day
And no matter where I go
I still carry all this weight
Like every bad memory I ever had
Never really went away
Maybe some things don’t leave you completely
Maybe that’s just part of growing older
You learn how to carry it
Even when it still hurts sometimes
Still awake
And the whole world starts turning gray
I can feel everything slowing down
A little more every day
And no matter where I go
I still carry all this weight
Like every bad memory I ever had
Never really went away
Rain’s still falling outside
And I’m still awake
